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Just a soldier girl in pink
Heroine Addict
Created on 2008-05-26 09:57:52 (#15699516), last updated 2008-06-04
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Basic Info| Name: | Tori |
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BioJust a little fan girl of ass kicking heroines. Does it look like I waste all my time watching TV? Well, yeah, but there are reasons for that. And then again, no. Because so many of my shows are long gone, to be seen only in morning reruns, DVD or downloads.
In my mind I am a heroine. But in real life I live with a painful chronic limitation. It's not a disability yet, but it often leaves me disabled. My shows and movies are my only comfort then. I'm fortunate to have a job I can do at home, making my own hours, which is important as my sleep is far from regular. But I'm unfortunate that my job pays little so my lifestyle is even more limited than my condition warrants, as despite being rather reclusive in nature I'll always have to share a rent or, worse, live with family. I have for now given up Schutzhund and am instead training my faithful "killer" to be an unofficial service dog to help me through the worse times. The only martial art I'll probably ever do is Tai Chi, but it does much to help the pain. Oh, there are my guns too, but despite my love for my Glock 9mm, the rare times I practice now are almost always with my .22 Beretta, my first gun, because it hurts me less and the ammo is cheaper. Despite not practicing like I used to, I'm a dead shot. I might hurt from it, but I'll be able to recover in safety if I ever found myself in need. ;-)
Yes, it seems I'm whining. But I want to be upfront about why I'm not just a lazy ass wasting my time on TV and the internet. And you do not have to worry that I'll fill this journal with my physical woes. I did that, I had drama, I'm just playing fangirl here.
In my head I'm a soldier girl, but one who loves pink and frills too. And guys, really, I do. Right now, however, I am feeling a bit bitter and when and how would I meet anyone new anyway? Someday maybe I can live what's in my head, when my condition is treatable with something that doesn't make me even sicker and fat. Honestly, it was the sicker part that keeps me from medicating. And that it didn't seem to help. Someday maybe I can live it when the treatment or even cure might actually give me super human powers.
A girl can dream, right?
In my mind I am a heroine. But in real life I live with a painful chronic limitation. It's not a disability yet, but it often leaves me disabled. My shows and movies are my only comfort then. I'm fortunate to have a job I can do at home, making my own hours, which is important as my sleep is far from regular. But I'm unfortunate that my job pays little so my lifestyle is even more limited than my condition warrants, as despite being rather reclusive in nature I'll always have to share a rent or, worse, live with family. I have for now given up Schutzhund and am instead training my faithful "killer" to be an unofficial service dog to help me through the worse times. The only martial art I'll probably ever do is Tai Chi, but it does much to help the pain. Oh, there are my guns too, but despite my love for my Glock 9mm, the rare times I practice now are almost always with my .22 Beretta, my first gun, because it hurts me less and the ammo is cheaper. Despite not practicing like I used to, I'm a dead shot. I might hurt from it, but I'll be able to recover in safety if I ever found myself in need. ;-)
Yes, it seems I'm whining. But I want to be upfront about why I'm not just a lazy ass wasting my time on TV and the internet. And you do not have to worry that I'll fill this journal with my physical woes. I did that, I had drama, I'm just playing fangirl here.
In my head I'm a soldier girl, but one who loves pink and frills too. And guys, really, I do. Right now, however, I am feeling a bit bitter and when and how would I meet anyone new anyway? Someday maybe I can live what's in my head, when my condition is treatable with something that doesn't make me even sicker and fat. Honestly, it was the sicker part that keeps me from medicating. And that it didn't seem to help. Someday maybe I can live it when the treatment or even cure might actually give me super human powers.
A girl can dream, right?
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acupuncture, aeryn, aeryn sun, ali larter, alias, alice, alice abernathy, alien, alien resurrection, aliens, aliens3, ana lucia, angel the series, angelina jolie, battlestar galactica, bend it like beckham, bionic woman, buffy, buffy summers, buffy the vampire slayer, cameron, charisma carpenter, claire bennet, claudia black, cordelia, cordelia chase, dana davis, dark angel, dog training, dogs, eliza dushku, evangeline lilly, faith, farscape, firefly, five by five, german shepherd dogs, gina torres, guns, hayden panettiere, heroes, jaime sommers, jane vasko, jennifer garner, jessica alba, jewel staite, jill valentine, joss whedon, kara thrace, kate austin, katee sackhoff, kaylee, kaylee frye, keira knightley, king arthur, kristanna loken, la femme nikita, lara croft, linda hamilton, lost, max, max guevara, michelle rodriguez, michelle ryan, milla jovovich, monica dawson, mr & mrs smith, niki sanders, nikita, painkiller jane, peta wilson, pilates, pirates of the caribbean, princess of thieves, protection dogs, resident evil, river tam, sarah connor, sarah corvis, sarah michelle gellar, schutzhund, sci-fi, serenity, sienna guillory, sigourney weaver, starbuck, summer glau, sydney bristow, tai chi, terminator, terminator 2, the sarah connor chronicles, tomb raider, tru calling, tru davies, yoga, zoe, zoe washburn
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